Neva Eva
Neva took the time to understand the beauty
Your physical attraction
And your dicks reaction to me
Blind sided you
An almost had me in a trance
Trance feeling so high
Wantin to do a victory dance
Thinkin after all the hurt an pain
I'd finally found the one
But mr one yu were da wrong one for me
Lettin sex guide my way
Only led me astray
Thinkin sex is equivalent to love
Dumbin down my feelings
Cause yu said you ain’t ready for love
An yu aint sure what yu want
But like a fool I waited
Hanging on yur every word
Even as yu ignored me an stored me away
For what yu consider to be a rainy day
Yu neva took the chance to get to know me
Neva did yu see potential in me
Neva did yu see the wifey in me
Somebody to love n care n hold yu down
No matta how much yu made me cry I stayed layin around
But like they say what goes around comes around and I used to love you,
I used to love them
But they neva took the chance to get to know me
Goodbye to past relationships
I'm embracin my new future to be
It’s a beautiful thing when I let go and focus on me
Reflection & Context
This spoken-word piece reflects on the painful confusion between physical attention and emotional connection, and the journey of realizing that being wanted is not the same as being truly known or loved. It explores how longing for closeness can sometimes lead to staying in situations where one’s value, dignity, and potential are not fully seen or honored.
The poem traces the shift from waiting to be chosen by someone who is emotionally unavailable to choosing oneself instead. It speaks to the process of recognizing patterns, releasing unhealthy attachments, and understanding that love involves respect, commitment, and genuine care—not just attraction or temporary attention.
At its heart, this piece is about growth and self-worth. It affirms that healing often begins when we stop settling for partial connection and start believing we deserve to be fully known, valued, and loved. Letting go becomes an act of courage, making room for a future rooted in clarity, confidence, and healthy love.
Reflection Prompt
Have you ever confused attention with affection, or closeness with commitment?
What would it look like to choose yourself, honor your worth, and wait for a love that truly sees and values who you are?
Original Performance
This piece was originally performed as part of the Lips & Poetry series, where spoken word meets lived experience. Watch the original recording below to hear the rhythm, breath, and emotion that first carried these words.