I Told God
Adieu
Reflection & Context
This piece took me a year to finally write because it was written in the raw aftermath of loss — when grief had stripped away stability, identity, and certainty all at once. It comes from the place of bargaining with God, of believing that life could not continue without the one who had become the center of my world, and then waking up to the truth that breath was still in my body, even when my heart felt shattered.
It reflects the tension between the pain of losing a loved one and being gently, firmly held here by grace. Between mourning what was taken and slowly recognizing that survival itself is not betrayal — it is obedience to the life God is still sustaining. This poem carries both the ache of separation and the quiet decision to keep walking, trusting that love is not lost, only transformed, and that reunion is promised, not erased.
Reflection Prompt
What has grief asked you to surrender, and what has it quietly taught you about your strength and your faith?
Where are you learning to live again, even while still loving what you have lost?
Original Performance
This piece was originally performed as part of the Lips & Poetry series, where spoken word meets lived experience. Watch the original recording below to hear the rhythm, breath, and emotion that first carried these words.