I Wonder
When we sit and think about the journey
Maybe this love is the type that
When I walk away you yern for it
Reflection & Context
This piece was written from the tension between longing and clarity — the place where hope and disappointment coexist in the same breath. It reflects the ache of loving someone who is emotionally distant, the pain of unspoken truths, and the quiet realization that sometimes absence becomes the loudest form of presence.
The metaphor of the blue watermelon holds the contradiction: beauty and sweetness on the outside, seeds of hurt on the inside. It captures the moment of recognizing that desire alone is not enough to sustain connection, and that walking away can awaken what staying could not.
Reflection Prompt
Where are you holding onto the sweetness of what could be, while ignoring the seeds of what is?
What would it look like to trust your clarity instead of your longing?.
Original Performance
This piece was originally performed as part of the Lips & Poetry series, where spoken word meets lived experience. Watch the original recording below to hear the rhythm, breath, and emotion that first carried these words.